a love lost

was exchanging PMs with a friend from college today, and it’s sad to know that he’s hurting once more.
the first time that a woman let him down, he lost more than his self respect.  he also lost two special little people in his life, and i honestly don’t know if he’ll ever see them again.  [...]

day and night

you see reason…i feel emotions
you try to understand…i sometimes resent
you think before you speak…i speak before i think
you forgive and forget…i tend to bear a grudge
you see the glass half full…i see it half empty
you’re patience personified…and i’m impatience made flesh
you’re the voice of reason that always pulls me back when i have allowed my [...]

you’ll be okay

it’s really not that hard to let go of a lost love, and there’s no such thing as “it’s so damned hard to forget him”  either.  if you look at what you’re feeling closely, you’ll realize that what’s holding you back from totally letting go of what you had with him are the what-could-have-beens and [...]

a big step forward, two steps back

finally had the courage to watch our wedding video last night.
when papa had a stroke, all things that reminded me when he was strong were too painful that i avoided them.  i avoided looking at old photos of papa, especially those photos where he was smiling with the corners of his eyes all crinkled up.  [...]

the healing process

A Normal Life Process
At some point in our lives, each of us faces the loss of someone or something dear to us.  The grief that follows such a loss can seem unbearable, but grief is actually a healing process. Grief is the emotional suffering we feel after a loss of some kind. The death [...]

safely home, papa…

to the husband who has dedicated his whole life to his family,
to the father who has made us his inspiration and inspired us in return,
to the man who has taught us in deed that integrity and the good life can go hand in hand,
walk tall, papa, for we are very proud of you!
…
we love you [...]

chasing butterflies

At least that’s what it feels like…
If you have ever tried chasing something so elusive, something that’s very, very hard to pin down, then you probably know how I feel on most days.
We start pulling out rabbits from our magic hats each and every morning and spend several hours in the afternoon straining our vocal [...]

when we say “i do”

i have lived my life before with sadness, anger, and uncertainty. but then, someone came and changed my whole life, the ultimate reason why i greet each day with a smile.
i never thought i’d find someone like you. you’re one of a kind, but this is only one of the reasons why i love you. [...]

us down to a tee! well…almost…

. . . j i n x . . .

Reliable Realists are down-to-earth and responsible-minded. They are precise, reserved and demanding. Their most prominent quality is reliability, and they will always make every effort to keep any promise given (not true. i sometimes promise just to shut the other person up and promptly dismiss [...]

life…love…death

death is the only constant truth in the world. everybody will die, and all of us are going to be just dust and bones in the end, regardless of your color, your race, your financial status, and your morals. we’re just that…dust and bones.
the death of a loved one, be it expected or [...]

a thousand ifs, a thousand sighs

just wanted to share this poem to friends who knew ryn. was rummaging through my wallet yesterday, throwing away old id cards and calling cards when i came upon an old, folded piece of paper. curious, i opened it. it was the poem ryn wrote me when we were “paying” for our [...]

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Men are from Mars, Women aint right in the Head

-=- REPOSTED FROM BO’S BLOG -=-
They say there are only two things that’s constant: death and taxes. I beg to disagree, there’s one more: women complaining about men. You could time travel a thousand years into the future or into the past and I’ll bet you’d still find women nagging men. [along with new gadgets [...]

my thoughts

do you believe in reincarnation?
i don’t, but if ever it’s true, i hope i get to meet gordon once more. i’d want to have the love and comfort i have with him right now time and time again. in the six years we had before getting married, he became my best friend not only my [...]